Dear Large Intestine Pt. 2

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Dear Large Intestine,

Oh my dearly departed, now that I have formally apologized I can express how much I miss you.

I miss you every day, sometimes every hour and sometimes every moment. I miss the ease you gave me when you were around, the confidence, the solidity. I even miss the noises you made. In fact, I may miss those most. Sometimes it feels like I will crawl into the darkest depths, curl up with the agony of missing you and lose my way back.  Sometimes I think I feel you missing me too. Do you?  I imagine you whispering to me as I slept through your final moments, saying, “keep going my love. I am with you my love. Remember what I taught you and don’t give up.”

Come back to me. Please?

I’ve prayed for your return. I’ve blamed and shamed and cried and screamed and bargained and begged. I’ve railed against my self, my loved ones, doctors, this country, god for taking you from me.  I’ve tried to get comfortable with the idea of life without you. I’ve tried to be spiritual about your passing.  To know that though you might be physically gone, your energy remains, your wisdom, your pathways. The memory of you.  But, I miss you. You were part of me, my insides.  I yearn for you, I ache for you, I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you today. I’ll miss you tomorrow. I miss you.

Wherever you are…I hope you are at peace. Please always know that I am yours and you are mine forever.

Eternally yours, Cody

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